Jack of All Trades, Master of None

I have a dental degree and used to be a dentist in South Africa and the UK. I have a MBA degree. I am also a California-licensed Acupuncturist and Herbalist. I have also taken additional courses in Astrology, Homeopathy, Flower Essences, Reflexology, Feng-Shui, Chinese Astrology, Stock Trading, Internet Marketing, Website design, and the list just goes on and on and on…

I’m basically a ‘professional’ student and feel most at home when I’m in a learning environment. I tend to struggle in my work environment mainly because I have issues with setting boundaries, so often get taken advantage of.

This, of course, makes me want to learn more, and work less.

I have reached a point in my life where I no longer know what on earth I want to do with my life? I feel unfulfilled. What is my calling? Why am I here? What is my purpose in life?

I feel, and always have felt most attracted to the spiritual and personal development field, and really wish to be able to flourish in those fields. However, because of all those degrees I already have, and am not putting into good use, I feel like if I don’t do something that is more ‘intelligent’, ‘tangible’, and ‘acceptable’, then I’m not putting my potential into good use, that I’ve wasted all my years of life, and all the money, in obtaining those degrees.

My dad was a military officer, who then changed careers and became a diplomat for Taiwan. My mom was a school teacher. I am a dentist and an acupuncturist. Yet, I want to just go into this spiritual development field, that is not accepted by ‘mainstream’. Can I really do that? Will I be disappointing my parents by choosing to do that?

I love being an acupuncturist and herbalist, and I am very good at it. I have natural healing abilities, and my patients love me. But due to relocating to MN, Covid, and my auto-immune issues, I have not pursued that. I’ve also noticed that I tend to pick up on other people’s energies and the energy around me easily. I can sense and feel everything around me. But I’m not very good at letting go, and releasing those external energies, so I end up getting very ill myself. A lot of times, my body and soul just absorbs the negative energies of people around me to help heal them, and I carry the karma of those negative energies myself.

That is why I’m a bit scared to start treating patients again. I feel like with the current circumstances, it’s best of me to do some kind of online work, and distant healing. I also wish to continue learning all the self-development and spiritual practices, but then once again, feel like it’s not putting my intelligence into good use. Is this my ego talking? Who do I think I am? Why do I think that a dentist is better than an astrologer, or that an acupuncturist is better than a tarot reader? At the end of the day, they’re all doing the same thing, and that is, to help heal humanity.

This is my psychological block, career-wise. I want to work towards releasing this block, so that I can do what I truly enjoy in life, and help humanity, and turn my passion into profit.

I Started a Joke

by The Bee Gees

I started a joke which started the whole world crying
But I didn’t see that the joke was on me oh no
I started to cry which started the whole world laughing
Oh If I’d only seen that the joke was on me

I looked at the skies running my hands over my eyes
And I fell out of bed hurting my head from things that I said
‘Till I finally died which started the whole world living
Oh if I’d only seen that the joke was on me

I looked at the skies running my hands over my eyes
And I fell out of bed hurting my head from things that I said
‘Till I finally died which started the whole world living
Oh if I’d only seen that the joke was on me
Oh no that the joke was on me